Thursday, May 27, 2010

Coming back

It feels somehow special to be coming back to friends after a long time away. Even though contact has been quite minimal, I feel that the emotional connection means even more now. Like there's an upgrade in the status of some relationships from new to old/lasting... in some cases an upgrade long overdue, in fact. It's good to have a place, a little world to return to. People who (well, I hope) still remember me. I guess whatever survives all this distance of time and space will be worthwhile.

At the same time I'm also realising (once again) that holding on to something simply because it's been there for a while isn't really what I want to do. I can appreciate old connections and familiar surroundings, but just because something has been part of my life for years doesn't mean it needs to have a prominent part for that sole reason. ...Hmm... I just realised that is true on more levels than one (but that is food for thought for another night). For now, I know that there is flow with some people and not so much with others. And if the flow connections are there, it makes sense to focus on them rather than those where growth isn't happening.

So hopefully the coming months will find me releasing what needs to be released, opening space to explore the new, and appreciating what has stood the test of time. Continuity and change. It is exciting to be in a place of my life where I can be so aware of both! I think that can be quite rightfully considered a befriending of Saturn and Uranus. :)

Of course from the side it's also easier to see the opportunities and ignore the difficulties. Everything might turn out to be not nearly as rosy as I see it now. Then again, it's spring - more than that, it's May! For me, a time of the three R-s: restlessness, romance, renewal. Which sounds horribly cliché, but what can I say, my mind and body seem to live quite in tune with the seasons. So anyway, why not add a fourth R of rose-coloured glasses - in the midst of all the excitement and emotional turmoil of things, it might just be the icing on the cake. :)

8 comments:

JJ said...

Yes, it is always good to befriend UrAnus (Futurama pun intended). So basically we haven't seen each other for two years. When are you coming back again?

Andeora said...

ONE week :)

JJ said...

See teeb siis mingi neljas juuni?

Andeora said...

Täpsemalt ööl vastu 3. juunit, tahad "õigel hetkel" tervitama tulla? :P

Laura said...

jee! Diana, tee ruttu siis! :D
jõuaksid isegi minu lõpetamisele (kui see ikka õnnestub), kui tahaksid ;)

JJ said...

Noo, mitte päris. Äge küll oleks tervitama tulla, aga praegu on sess. Niikuinii 5.-8. veedan seoses TREFFiga TAllinnas

Andeora said...

Laura: millal Su lõpetamine on?
Jari: millal Sa Pärnus ja vaba oled?

JJ said...

Haha! Pärnusse ma ei tea, millal ma üldse jõuan. Äärmisel juhul peale 16. juunit, sest siis on mul viimane eksam loodetavasti.