Stillness

Thought I could write something here again. I've had so much going on this month and yet perhaps it's even been too much for me to write about it here. Now I've had some days of quiet life in Pärnu, and the thought of blogging seems attractive once again. It's funny how I seem to write here more when there's less happening in my life. I suppose that's when I have more time to do it.

It's good right now, being here and just doing little everyday things. After the miraculously amazing past two weeks I thought I'd be really frustrated to sit in one place with little happening, but this feels perfectly right the way it is. I've started reading Eckhart Tolle's "The Power of Now", and for once I seem to have spent more time with the practice than the theory. Being in the moment, noticing the little things, appreciating the little things. Seeing beauty in everything. It's amazing how everything can really be beautiful.

Yes, you really are where you need to be at any point in time. Whether it be silence or turbulence. When things were happening, it felt right. Now this peaceful state also feels right. Maybe soon something else will come along. For now, it's just amazing to rediscover something like home comfort. To realise that there really is a place that I can call home, and that word has a real meaning. Not perhaps the Great Spiritual Meaning that I seem to be always searching for, but a meaning nonetheless, and a very valuable one. And I think for once I feel I can actually appreciate the Earth element. Comfort, stability, abundance. Fertile soil that green living plants grow out of. Everything feels just right, from talking with mum to sitting in the garden and feeling as though I were an organic part of it. It might just be a moment's thing, and probably will be so, but I think it's a necessary moment.

Life can flow smoothly when you move with it.