It is not about light. It is not about darkness either. It can be either as long as in the end there are both. Not everything is divisible into light and dark categories either. I remember somebody said demons and angels are just two different ways to call the same beings. You need courage, honesty and determination to approach light as much as you do to approach darkness. And in the end, the very categories themselves are our subjective perceptions.
I think the point is to work towards being all that you can be. Exploring all the aspects. Perhaps one could say it's depth psychotherapy "going beyond".
Scire, Velle, Audere, Tacere
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2 weeks ago
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And today I was thinking about the two me's of my split personality, wondering if either one will ever win. Not sure whom I want to win, so I guess it's a neverending fight. As you said, exploring all the aspects
What are your two me's like?
One is more like my past self - weird, dark, mysterious, depressive, yet smart and ambitious which sometimes leads to being too obsessive about being perfect and not accepting failure. On the other hand, she's a realist and not denying if there's problems (either her own or someone else's, which makes a lot), but she's too idealistic to admit not all can be solved.
The other is the girl who developed during the recent years - jolly, happy, laughing and joking, loving parties and good company, conforming and trying hard to get along with people, but also ignorant, willing to throw all worries aside by simply engaging in fun activities like computer games. Which often makes her lazy and somewhat addicted to Runescape, because she fears sinking back into depression.
It reminds me of "Catcher in the Rye", this notion of growing up=conforming. After we had discussed this book in class, I was thinking why conform? Why not stay unique and rebellious? Which may be one reason I dare not attempt destroying that depressive half. (Though it's actually the newer me who tends to get childish, but that's just a side effect of being happy)
Maybe it's something that's been a you, or at least a part of you, for so long that leaving it behind would mean having little from your past to hold onto.
Just my two cents but.. take the new part of yourself as far as you can.. it will lead back to the old you but in a new way. At least it is slowly starting to do that in my case.. The two halves being pretty much the same you described. Eventually you realize that you are neither and are both.. and that it is all about balance.. but the only way to realize it seems to be going to one extreme, especially if you are used to the other one.
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