My Danish friend

You said I'd soon forget you. And then you said that you hope our friendship lasts a lifetime.

Looks like you were wrong with the first and chose to be wrong with the second of these. See, it's been five and a half years, and here I am, up at 4:35 am, writing these words, and still a part of me hopes that one day you'll read them and get in touch with me again. My dark Plutonian friend, I've changed so much in these years, and I imagine so have you. Maybe it is only a fantasy I have, of what it would be like to hear from you, write to you again. Maybe it was all a fantasy. Only I still have those e-mails. And they still make me feel the way they did then.

I wonder what you'd do if you were to read this. Would you recognise me? Perhaps you would, after all you know me by the same name I use here. I've never mentioned yours here, though I've mentioned you time and time again.

Maybe it really is better this way. Even if my fantasy of you has roots in reality - maybe it's the sunlight that I need to focus on right now, rather than the darkness of the wastelands of loneliness. Autumn will come soon enough. For now, at least, I have summer. I wonder, do you have summers, too? You, who you are for me a symbol of the darkness that need not be feared.

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Quiet rest, everyday life. Being at home. Always wanted to move away as much as possible from there, to gain new experiences and see what there can be. But sometimes that's not necessary. Right now, things are just how they need to be at the moment. Nothing more, nothing less. Even if it's not perfect, it's still right. Who knows how I will feel about this tomorrow, next week, next month. Right now, there's acceptance. And contentment. Little everyday things need attention, too. I'm experiencing now what a month ago I didn't want to experience at all, and it's not so bad. It's actually good. It's all about the timing. A month or two from now, something else will be necessary for the moment. But now is now.

Whoever you are who you are reading this blog right now, I hope you feel good in the place and moment where you are.

(Note to self: would be good to write here when my brain is still awake for a change)

Irresistible quiz

Luke Skywalker

Boldly striving to overcome the darkness both in this world and within yourself, you are righteously devoted to forging your own destiny.

It's your choice, but I warn you not to underestimate my powers.

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Quiz discovered from Mialee's blog. So... what character are you?

And then there was inspiration.